Prayer For Direction

The antidepressants are helping, but I still don't see a way out of this mess. Bottom line, I want this marriage to work. It would take a series of great miracles and I don't hold any hope any more. That leaves me with my second choice. I want out. I don't want to hurt him. I don't want to be the one to break up this fragile family. I don't want to take the financial hit. But even more I don't want to live with  him knowing that even a little honesty from me sends him to that place of anger and hate.

I think we are getting close. Melody is terrified of him after he cornered her in his truck telling her the world is ending in 5 weeks. She was in tears. I confronted Mark and his response was he needs to talk to her again, in part to correct the wrong things I told her when she asked me about it. I apologized to Melody for betraying her confidence. Grace and I decided that Mark no longer gets time alone with her. She doesn't want to be around him at all. Grace insists the issue is off-limits but we both know World War III will be unleashed when that restriction is imposed. So we'll avoid it as best we can. But this might be the big one. The right approach is so clear yet he is so set on his views I don't think he'll bend.

Proverbs 3:5 Trust in the Lord with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding; ⁶ In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He shall direct your paths.
  
My prayer all day has been reminding myself and telling Jesus that I trust Him even though I don't understand this and I don't see a way out. But I acknowledge that He knows what He is orchestrating and I trust Him to direct my path.