Happy Anniversary

Today is our 32nd wedding anniversary. And I'm moving out day after tomorrow.

It's also Thanksgiving. I am thankful for the good things in my marriage, the many good years. That realization hit home last night when he volunteered to get my car repaired next payday, even though I will be gone by then. I am walking away from so much that is good; a beautiful home, security and a husband who tries really hard. He's ok 95% of the time, it's just the other 5% I can't live with anymore.

I fluctuate between thinking I've lost my mind to a quiet excitement. Every once in awhile I feel a little bit of wonder, a sense of the great horizon before me where the possibilities are limitless. But most of the time I am terrified. I am all alone for the first time in my life. Even the brief couple of years between leaving home and getting married, I always had my parents to turn to. God, I miss my dad right now. I could sure use one of his big bear hugs....

So, I am on a grand adventure with a new captain. In prayer this week I felt Jesus gave me a picture. It was a man's leg and the muscles were growing stronger as I watched. It was kinda funny.... What He told me was that He was growing stronger now - that I had stepped out from under the covering of the inadequate into His covering. I was allowing Him to grow stronger on my behalf. Even my husband's desire to help with the car was from His influence. He was meeting my needs and will continue to do so.

Here's to smooth sailing - or at least a strong leg to hold onto when the waves crash over the bow....